Saw this on my journal. This is one of my moments with Him I won’t ever forget. He is the “Great I AM”. A man who listens to our pains, to our gladness. He’s always there to encourage us whenever we’re weak. I pray that who ever may read this will also be encouraged and be whole once again. May your heart be changed. Be loved His Beloved. Find a time of solace. Forgive and Forget.
April 13, 2009
I really cannot contain what is inside of me. Indescribable. I found myself in the middle of the night, looking for a pen and paper. There were tears that fall while writing the words my heart wanted to cry out. I heard an explosion of emotion. But no one other than me heard it. No one. I felt like I am a leaf where in no one can hear nor see it falling.
There were times that I asked myself, why am I like this? Can I be like…..or…..? Is this a feeling of insecurity or I just need to realize that I have something in me which I just couldn’t see right now. Why am I like this, I pretend I am not hurt though I really am? I tell everybody that I am not hurt though it really breaks my heart.
Things around us really can’t give us what we really want. Even the situation we are in or the people we are always with. Sometimes, it’s just our own self who can give us our desires and the feeling of contentment. In this worldly living, we are surrounded by things seen through our naked eyes. Yes. In fact, the generation we belong right now is fed up with too many kinds of technological gadgets and other things that can make our works easier than before.
Though we are in a material world, we cannot deny the fact that it is a sanctuary full of thoughts and ideas, full of hopes and victories, of righteousness and joy, love and affection. But behind those facets of life, there embed a portion of hurt, dismayed and other emotional distractions. Honestly, I’m one of those people who experienced the other side of life. Emotional challenges are simple things which interferes our concentration. The reality of life engage us to instances of experiencing senses of pain. How can we deal with those heavy emotional upset? In my case, sometimes, I tend to wish to be like somebody who has the very strength to stand in all kinds of waves. I admit I am not that courageous at times. I opt to cry alone in places where people can’t see me. I just stay in places where I can find some peace of mind.
I wanna be welcomed in a new season. A season where everything is transformed the way the Holy Spirit wants it to be. As my heart cried out, words just flow. I know it won’t be enough if I could just let my heart to be filled up. My heart needs to be where He is. I don’t want to go somewhere if He’s not there because I know that me without him is not life. I don’t want to walk the road million miles from home. That’s why I started writing the words He wanted me to realize.
There are times in our life when everything we see seems so wrong, we feel brokenness, hatred and fears. There are also times where in we feel so isolated in the world we live in because there are hurts in our hearts that hinder us to be aligned to other brethren and even to God. Sometimes, all we want to do is to be alone, avoid those persons who hurt you and cry out loud.
On the other hand, hurts that are settled in the hearts will hinder us to grow, to even realize what love means and to forget how to forgive. Life’s hurts are earthly situations or emotions that test our capability to understand and forgive. These are the roots of other emotions and sins. Hurts may develop in different ways. I found out three different types of hurts:
1. Physical hurts– hurts which involve physical interaction and may include wounds and infections which can be cured by medicines. E.g. mosquito bites
2. Psychological hurts– hurts formed in our minds. These hurts sometimes occur because of our own intellectual personalities, belief and pride. E. g. insecurities and pride
3. Lastly, Emotional hurts– it comes after physical and psychological hurts. It is the most complicated kind of hurt because it can be the root of other unwanted thoughts and acts. These are the hurts derived from past and present experiences. These are the hurts developed from the hearts.
Our heart is too sensitive. We tend to focus on hurts inside our hearts. But as we magnify it, everything around us will change, even our own selves. Enduring hurts are not easy especially when it is like of a deep ocean, emotions hidden so long and caused by those people whom we really treasured.
For us to totally endure hurts, we must be led by the Holy Spirit. God’s people are the temple of God and God’s spirit lives within us. We must let His spirit move in us.
“…For we are the temple of the living God. As God has said: “I will live with them and walk among them, I will be their God…” 2Corinthinans 6:16 (NIV)
A heart without the move of the Holy Spirit does not know how to come before the king. However, if our hearts are filled by the Holy Spirit we can easily manage hurts, especially emotional hurts; the issues of the heart. It will be turned into love and honoring. Honoring the person who hurt us is not that easy to do but if we know in ourselves that we are loved and will be continually loved, we can easily overcome emotional challenges. All we have to do is to be hungry of the love of the Father. We should not deal with our hurts for a long time. It can also help if we will just be reminded of the good memories that we have with that person and the things he/she had done that made our lives colorful and meaningful.
Physical hurts can easily be cured with the help of medicines and of supernatural healing. Yet, emotional and psychological hurts need the power of the Holy Spirit. If we pave way for the emptiness and filling of the spirit in our hearts, we will be eventually healed. We should learn that hurts, especially emotionally and psychological hurts are just matters of the heart. We should not settle our minds and our hurts in this world full of challenges for us to see His glory.
“Therefore I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy,
to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God-
this is your spiritual act of worship.
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world,
but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.
Then you will be able to test and approve
what God’s will is- his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:1-2 (NIV)
A sense of pain will help us to gain more wisdom and that’s the most precious thing we should always remember. Wisdom will eventually overcome every other unrighteousness together with the issues of our hearts.
“Blessed is the man who finds wisdom,
The man who gains understanding,
For she is more profitable than silver
And yields better returns than gold.” Proverbs 3:13-14
It really takes time for hurts to be totally healed but after the struggles, we can finally feel the freedom. Fears will be wiped away. We can even face the world with courage and all bitterness will be vanished.
Another way to move on from the hurts in our hearts is to soak in the presence of the father and ask him for a peaceful heart. We should also confront those people whom we have hurts in a way that he/ she will be blessed. We should talk to them heart to heart for hurts are issues of the heart.
The Bible says “If a fellow believer hurts you, go and tell him- work it out between the two of you. If he listens, you’ve made a friend.” Matthew 18:15
Being in His presence will assure us that everything will be alright. We must also know that hurts are not part of the place of remembrance; for the atmosphere you felt before will just come back. On the other hand, when we are filled by the Holy Spirit at the time we remember our hurts, we will just realize that it makes sense. We can use it to make wise and righteous decisions in life.
Forgiveness must be in our hearts and our minds. We must know how to forgive just as how our father forgives us in our sins and saves us from death. A heart who knows how to forgive can calm the storms and will eventually strengthen his/her faith. It is our faith which opens our way to be in his presence all the days of our lives and will take us to a higher level of intimacy with him.
This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us.
And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. 1john 3:16 NIV
Stop being bitter and angry and mad at others.
Don’t yell at one another or curse each other or ever be rude.
Instead, be kind and merciful, and forgive others, just as God forgave you
Because of Christ. Ephesians 4:31-32 CEV
Bear with each other and forgive whatever
grievances you may have against one another.
Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love,
Which binds them all together in perfect unity. Colossians 3:13 NIV
I may not express my thoughts clearly and the grammar may not be that good but I pray that everyone who will be able to read this will be enlighten; every words revealed will make sense and change our hearts in a way pleasing to others and to God. Yes, I too have to grasp the revelations with heart and ears open.
Lastly, another thing that I want to point out is that we should not pay hurts to all who hurt us because love is the key. Our heart must be a compartment of love and not of hurts.
“Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger,
brawling and slander, along with other form of malice.
Be kind and compassionate to one another,
forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.” Ephesians 4:31-32
“…let us love one another for love comes from God.
Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God.
Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is Love.”1John 4:7-8
May the Lord bless you and keep you. The grace of the Lord Jesus be with you always. In Jesus name. Amen.