Soliloquy and sweet nothings

I felt like a star hung up the sky
As I watched over you
From a thousand miles away
Now I’m getting used to
You took it all away
I don’t feel it anymore.

You brought me to your universe
The best feeling I’ve ever had
Yet you let me became a meteorite
And to a new planet I was crushed
You took it all away
I don’t feel it anymore.

When you move, my world used to slow
You were my sun, my center of motion
You were my dusk and my beautiful dawn
But you disappeared under the moon
You took it all away
I don’t feel it anymore.

You were the waves, I was your ocean
My constant muse, you were my soul
Then you left me with bruises and
The brightest colours were now fading
You took it all away
I don’t feel it anymore.

My constant muse, I used to
I swear, I was completely into
But you took it all away
And I don’t feel it anymore.

Para sa’yo aking Andres,

Panibagong araw na naman. Kamusta ka? Ako heto, simula na naman ng pagtahak sa buhay mag-isa- umagahan, tanghalian hanggang hapunan. Kumain ako mag-isa kanina, sumakay sa mga pampublikong transportasyon habang napapaligiran ng mga taong hindi ko kilala, naglakad sa gilid ng daan ng napakaaga habang nagsisimula pa lamang ang bukang liwayway ng walang kasama. May miminsang makakausap ng ibang tao pero syempre pansamantala lang ang lahat. Sa ngayon, nasa harap na naman ako ng aking makina, nagbabasa ng mga sulatroniko, nagbubukas ng mga panginain, at sinusuri ang mga nabubuksang kawingan. Napapaisip ako, kelan kaya tayo makakapagpalitang kwento? Kelan na magpapanagpo ang ating mga mata? Kailan natin magkasamang maririnig ang ating paboritong himig? Kailan kaya tayo iindak ng sabay sa iisang tugtugin? Mga tanong na kay hirap sagutin at wala tayong pedeng gawin kung hindi ang maghintay.

Nararamdaman mo na ba ang pagod? Kanina ka pa kasi tumatakbo sa utak ko. Anong pinagkakabalahan mo? Kung ano man yan, hangad ko ang iyong tagumpay at wagas na kaligayahan. Huwag ka masyadong magpaka-Superman o Spiderman. Alam mo na, wala silang oras para sa pag-ibig, baka hindi na magtagpo nyan ang ating mundo. Gusto mo ba yun? Ako ayoko. Kaya hindi ako masyadong nagpapaka Darna para pagdumating yung panahon na sabay tayong lilipad sa ere, tayo na ang magkasama. Walang kahit sino, tayo lang habang tinitingnan ang ganda ng mundo mula sa himpapawid. 

Panahon na naman ng pag-ibig. Anong gagawin mo sa eksaktong araw ng mga puso? Magpakasaya ka dahil yun din ang gagawin ko. Ayos lang kung may kasama ka ngayon basta kapag dumating na ang panahon na sabay at magkasama na nating ipagdidiwang iyon, dapat iyon ang best day ever. Kung ako ang tatanungin mo kung ano ang gagawin ko, isa lang naman ang ginagawa ko taon taon, yun ay ang hintayin ka. Naghihintay lang ako. Dito lang ako hangga’t nariyan ka. Nandito lang ako maghihintay sa’yo. Ayokong hanapin ka baka kasi iba pa ang makita ng aking makita. Huwag kang mag-alala, bukas ang landas patungo sa akin. Pinabuksan ko na sa Kay Bathala para sa’yo. Eh sa malakas ako sa kanya dahil marikit naman ako at bilang ako ang nagsabi. Magkita na lang tayo doon sa may ilalim ng araw at tumalon tayo ng tumalon sa saya, sabi nga sa Summer song. Saka kapag naririnig ko ang awiting Forevermore, pakiramdam ko ako si Agnes at ikaw ang aking Xander. Maari rin bang malaman ko kung anong tugtugin ang nagpapaalala na ako’y sa’yo at ika’y aking lamang? Nais ko sanang idagdag sa aking talaan. 

Huwag mo kalilimutang ngumiti, nakatutulong yun hindi lamang sa’yo kundi pati na rin sa ibang tao. Gusto ko yung laging may ngiti sa iyong labi kahit na anong lungkot o pangit ng araw mo. Baka kasi pagmagkasalubong tayo, sungitan mo ako. Iniisip ko pa lamang kasi parang ang sarap sa pakiramdam kapag nakangiti ka patungo sa akin. Huwag kang mag-alala pipilitin ko ding gawin yun para sa’yo. Ang sarap isipin ang araw ng ating pagtatagpo. Kung nagkasama naman na tayo sa ibang pagkakataon, nakakagalak ding balikan nang mga pagkakataon yaon. Paniguradong mula bukang liwayway hanggang takip silim ay hindi tayo magsasawang magkwentuhan; kung saan lahat ng ating bukam bibig ay may kahulugan -bawat pintig, bawat salita, bawat tono, bawat hinga. 

Hanggang dito nalang muna. Ayoko kasing maubusan ng sasabihin kapag nagtagpo na tayo. Marami akong ikukwento alam ko ikaw din. Relaks lang muna tayo at maging mas magandang  bersyon ng ating mga sarili hanggang sa makita natin ang isa’t isa. Mag-iingat ka parati. Alagaan mo ang iyong sarili.

Naghihintay,

Ang iyong Oriang

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I Love You Too Much – Diego Luna

Just watched The Book of Life and I fell in love with this song. *melancholy* Maybe this is the kind of song that I’ve always wanted to hear.

I love you too much
to leave without you loving me back
I love you too much
heaven’s my witness and this is a fact

I know I belong
when I sing this song
There’s lovable flow and it’s ours
’cause I love you too much

I live for your touch
I whisper your name night after night
I love you too much
There’s only one feeling and I know its right

I know I belong
when I sing this song
There’s lovable flow and it’s ours
’cause I love you too much

Heaven knows your name and I’ve been praying
to have you come here by my side
Without you a part of me is missing
Just to make you my whole life will fly

I know I belong
when I sing this song
There’s lovable flow and it’s ours
’cause I love you too much

I love…. you too much
I love you too much
Heaven’s my witness and this is a fact
You live in my soul
Your heart is my gold
There’s lovable flow but its mine ’cause I love you
There’s lovable love and it’s yours cause I love you
There’s lovable flow and it’s ours if you love me as much

Are You Keeping Your Love in Silence?

“The little bit you and me might change the world”

Maloy smiled. ” It wouldn’t show up until a hundred years after we we’re dead.”

“We’d never see it.”

“But it’d be there.”

-James Jones, From Here to Eternity

So here’s another tearjerker video. Enjoy! 🙂

Have you ever wished your thoughts could be heard so its voice could reach the one you love?

Confessing your feelings to someone you love is not as easy as sipping a hot caramel coffee- that if you love the flavour you’ll really give your courage to drink it. You are prepared to endure the pain of every burning sip.

A friend once told me, “Sometimes pain is not so much about whether the other person doesn’t like or love you back, it’s about you not telling the person how or what you feel that’s why it hurts.”

You might say, “There is no rejection when you love someone is silence”. But you are actually afraid of rejection. There is a loud rotten voice inside of you wanted to unleash but you choose to keep it yourself.

You might say, “There are words that are better left unsaid”. The truth is you lack the courage to push it through.

But here’s the thing. Silence is not a tool for communication. Communication is a different thing. You will never understand a person unless you ask or communicate.

Sometimes, it’s good to keep your love in silence but the best way to understand what you really feel is when you communicate it to the other person. You may not know the consequences but at least you tried. You may finally have the assurance of what the other person feels about you- so it will keep yourself away from assumptions, pains and regrets.

“Love arrives exactly when love is supposed to.”

And

“Love leaves exactly when love must.”

Love is just everywhere.

At the end of the day, it’s still about you and what you feel. It’s about your choices and your willingness to face the consequences. But you don’t want to wait for forever then be surprised that it’s already late, right? ^_^

Ngiti Na

Kung mamasdan mo lang ang milyong bituin
Matatanaw mo ang nilimot mong mga pangarap
Kung miminsang hayaan mong liparin ka ng hangin
Dadalhin ka nito sa pinakamataas na ulap
Kalimutan mo na ang hapis at pighati
Yapusin mo ang hapdi ang walang pagsisisi
Tinatawag kang muli ng iyong puso
Patungo sa paraisong pangarap mo ang bumuo
Hayaan mo lang magpatuloy ang iyong kwento
Pagkatapos ng bawat tuldok, siguradong may istoryang bago
Patuloy kang mabuhay sa ritmo ng iyong damdamin
Huwag ka ng magdalawang isip na ito ay sundin
Puso mo man ay nabalot ng dilim at  hikbi
Wag kang padadaig sa mga hamon ng gabi
Hangga’t ikaw ay patuloy na humihinga
Nawa ay makita mo na palaging may bagong umaga
Ngiti na, maglakbay ka at dinggin ang bagong tinig
Ngiti na, bukas palad ng muli para sa’yo ang daigdig
Ngiti na, naghihintay na ang makulay na buhay
Ngiti na, ngitli lang hanggang makitang muli bukang liwayway.

Mirage

There is a soul craving to whisper at its best

So here’s a poem to someone she haven’t met yet

She’s got words so dear, sweet music to her ears

Seeking for gentle sonnets penned by Shakespeare

Oh what good would it bring if she knew nothing?

She knew nothing even thy beautiful name

Still there’s a gravity holding down her being

And illuminates the day when there’s heavy rain

She asked, “Do you love ice cream? If yes, I’ll be here waiting”.

“Tell me your much-loved movies. So I’ll know where to begin”.

“What’s that book that will always stay with you?”

“I would love to share mine, so you could read it too.”

She asked, “Can you see the shapes of the clouds?”

“Now, you can see the shape of my heart.”

And then suddenly her heart beats so loud.

She’s beginning to think that love’s not a mirage.

As the moon bids good night and the sun greets “Hi”

Her scribbles of an unknown creature in the clear night sky

They might slowly disappear without saying goodbye

But will be intimately remembered like the kisses of a butterfly

Unstoppable Love

“God You pursue me
Your power and glory.
Unstoppable love that never ends.”

“That’s what love does-it pursues blindly, unflinchingly, and without end.

When you go after something you love, you’ll do anything it takes to get it, even if it costs everything.”

Love does by Bob Goff, Chapter 7, Page 52

Note to self: Just love, just do it.
Remembering Your unfailing love, even if when all else fails.

 

All I Want Is You

You looked into my fragile heart

And poured out love on its deepest part

You opened the gates of heaven for me

And captivated my being with Your Majesty.

 

In Your Holy presence, I am free

Your peaceful spirit is within me

Take me Oh God to a secret place

Where I can see Your throne and Your face.

 

Embrace me with your arms of love

Anoint me with the eyes of a dove

Empty me of the selfishness inside

Open up the heavens and be my guide.

 

You are the cry of this heart

You are the light of its inner part

Through You I will never be shaken

With You I can climb the mountains.

 

Take away all my insecurities

Let this heart be captured in purity

Place me at the center of Your glory

All I want is to see Your beauty.

 

All I want is to be drowned

To be a queen and be crowned.

I wanna hear Your melody

Your Kingdom is all I want to see.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reaching For You

 

Reaching For You

You created me inside Your great imagination
You’re the One who gave me my first breath
You have overseen my life and brought me to redemption
And I know that You’re not finished with me yet

I’m reaching for You
I’m singing to You
I’m lifting my hands to praise You
I’m lifting my voice to thank You
I’m reaching for You
Jesus I need You
I’m giving my heart to know You
I’m living my life to serve You
I’m reaching for You

You’re the one who spoke the Word of life to light my darkness
You opened up my eyes ’til I could see
Jesus You have promised to complete the work You started
Faithful to fulfill Your grace in me

Pour out Your love from heaven
Fill me until I overflow Lord I want more
Reach down Your hands from heaven
Pull me closer than ever before Lord I want more
Pour out Your love from heaven
Fill me until I overflow ’cause I want more
Reach down Your hands from heaven
Pull me closer than ever before Lord I want more

Oh I’m reaching
God I’m reaching for You