And It’s You Dad

Dear Papa God,

 

Thank You very much for all the things You’ve done.

You are my everything.

You are the sweetest reason why this heart keeps on beating.

From dawn to dusk and dusk to dawn, my heart stands in awe of You.

I embrace the truth that I am made to love You- forever, even until my breath runs dry-

and be loved by You.

Your love makes my heart more than perfect- a life living for genuineness.

You keep looking on how to save my day- not on my mess.

You hold my hand so gentle that I don’t want You to let go of me.

Even when I stumble, I will not fall because I delight in Your beauty and mercy.

In Your arms of love, my savior, I finally find my reason to live.

The way You smile at me creates a new day- a new beginning to seek life.

I want to get lost in Your presence.

Come like a flame. Consume me.

I will not be ashamed shouting for Your name.

Use me. Test me on this.

I believe in Your promises.

I dwell in Your holiness and purity.

Lord, come and bring me closer to You.

All that I have, I give it all to You.

Break my heart for what breaks Yours.

I am after Your heart, Father.

I long to see Your face.

When I heard Your voice, and I heard my name

I desire to be drowned in the deepest ocean.

Come rushing to me Daddy!

I want this heart be exposed and yearn for intimacy.

With arms wide open, I offer my whole being.

I am running to You, I am rushing to You, my one true love.

 

Love,

Yana

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Love: The truth behind the myth

Seriously, I don’t know how to start this. I was longing to write about “something” I actually don’t know what that “something” might be. Then, after a year or so, I heard this song once again. I thought I was not okay. I wanna cry. I was so broken. I wanna sit somewhere I could have my moment. Emo-ish? No. The truth is I’m more than okay. It’s just the melancholic part of me. Please bear with me as this will be very messy and random. Ahhh! This song!

Glance by Misty Edwards

I remember the first glance
I remember the first romance
I remember the first dance
When I fell in love with You
When I fell in love with You
When I fell in love…

I thought that I would never know love
And maybe I would never know touch
And then You came and awakened me
And then You came unlocking me
I’ve never known a love like this
You’ve shown the truth behind the myth
The mystery

I remember the first glance
I remember the first romance
I remember the first dance
When I fell in love with You
When I fell in love with You
When I fell in love…

When it’s all been said
When it’s all been done
When the race is run
And this life overcome
I will remember Your love
I will remember Your love I will remember Your love
I will remember Your love

 

Do you remember your first encounter with your wife/ husband, girl friend/ boyfriend, or special someone? Do you remember the first time your crush noticed your genuine smile? Do you remember the first time you fell in love like as if your time stops turning the moment he or she passed by or the first time you went out together for a cup of coffee?  Well, I suppose you have kept those memories in your heart and in your mind. You might even have your diary where you put all of the things you did with him or her.

It’s great to feel so loved, isn’t it? But it’s far more amazing to be in love with someone you want to be with FOREVER. Tell me if it’s just me. Haha! So, my mind and my hands are now talking about love. BOOM!

Love? What is love? Isn’t it love if we accept the hard to like? Can you see love? How will you know if it’s love? There are so many questions and ideas running when love is the center of a conversation. But there’s one thing about love that I will remember ‘til eternity.

Jesus came to be crushed for us. He came to be bruised, scourged and pierced. Why?

Because He loves us.

His love is more than just a feeling; it is His sacred obsession for all of us. Feelings come and go but His love is everlasting.

Love is a daily commitment. It is a decision to be faithful. Love changes our paths- to a direction of truth and wisdom. True love is unconditional-it is not blind. Love is not possessive. It is built on trust. Love is not easy-even to love the most loveable person in the room. Love is not two kinds of ice cream- that you have to choose among the flavors then put it aside when you don’t like it. Love is an undistracted devotion. Love is not being filled with fuzzy feelings and flying with butterflies. Love is not just an emotion. It is an act- an act of valuing others more than yourself. Love is being after one’s heart; not on the things you see. Love is not about the one you love, it is always the one doing the loving.

We have our own definition of love. But above all, we must rely to the wisest definition of love, “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” 1Corinthians 13:4-7

Try as you might, you can’t hinder yourself from giving love and from being loved.

So, what’s love for you?

On Deep and Wide by Andy Stanley

I haven’t read a Christian book that is so honest and discomforting; a book that will unveil hidden ideas; a book that will definitely hurt feelings and convict beliefs; a book that will start out murmurs to minds; a book that initiates new thoughts on change- until a book entitled Deep and Wide written by Andy Stanley was introduced to our church.

About the Author

Andy Stanley is the founder of North Point Ministries, Inc. (NPM). Each Sunday morning, more than 33,000 people attend one of NPM’s seven Atlanta area churches… Over one million of Andy’s messages are accessed from North Point websites monthly, including both leadership and sermon content. Andy and his wife, Sandra, live in Alpharetta, Georgia and have three children. (http://andystanley.com/about/Image

North Point Ministries, Inc., was founded in 1995 with the vision of creating churches that un-churched people love to attend. Since its inception, NPM has grown from one church to five in metro-Atlanta and has developed a global network of more than thirty strategic partner churches. (http://northpointministries.org/)

Deep and Wide:  Creating Churches Unchurched People Love to Attend 

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I will not make a book review here or a commentary. I’ll just share how this book has touched my heart. To top all of it, I listed all my favorite lines I got from the book.

“Write your vision in ink; everything else should be penciled in. Plans change. Vision remains the same. It is natural to assume that what worked in the past will always work. But, of course, that way of thinking is lethal. And the longer it goes unchallenged, the more difficult it is to identify and eradicate. Every innovation has an expiration date. The primary reason churches cling to outdated models and programs is that they lack leadership.” 

As leaders, we are never responsible for filling anyone else’s cup. Our responsibility is to empty ours.”

“As a leader it is your job to protect the missional integrity of the Jesus gathering to which you have been called. It is your responsibility to see to it that the church under your care continues as a gathering of people in process; a place where the curious,the unconvinced, the sceptical, the used-to-believe and the broken, as well as the committed, informed and sold-out come together around Peter’s declaration that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of the living God.” 

 “Marry your mission. Date your model. Fall in love with your vision. Stay mildly infatuated with your approach.”

“Don’t fall in love with a tactic and defend it forever. Instead, decide once and for all if you’re in a market or not.- Seth Godin”

I couldn’t agree more on things Andy discussed. I’m now into his vision and passion. I love how he sincerely pointed out the significance of change and the role of leaders and church members to successfully execute their vision and mission. Leadership is vital. Once a leader refuse to accept change; acceleration, growth and moving towards a new chapter will be very challenging or worst, all of these will stop and the church will just be a place full of attendees and “Sunday Christians”.

And yes, the church is not just for those who believe Jesus but it is for the unchurched people as well. There are a lot of unchurched people whom we have to extend the unfailing love of everlasting King.

Amongst the lines above, here is the most unforgettable statement that really captured me.

“You want to see change? Ask God to start with you. Ask him to burden you with something worth risking your career for. And no, that’s not hyperbole. That’s the nature of a God-ordained vision. It’s not simply something that could be. It’s something you are convinced must be. When that’s clear, and when you think you’re ready to begin talking about it in terms people can understand and get behind, then and only then are you ready to start talking about what needs to change.”

Change is up to our own choices. Change is sacrifice. Change is a risk. But change is what we need to understand what God has laid for us. Let us love change and read this powerful book.