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Heart to Heart

I haven’t written anything here for the past few months.

I lost my passion on writing? Not really.

I had no urge to write? Maybe.

Busy? Yes. Sort of.

No inspiration? Well. Definitely no.

I just don’t know what to write. I was overwhelmed with all the things happened for the past months.

Too many circumstances that I didn’t know how to put  into writing.

Too many emotions and moments that I experienced for the first time.

Too many waiting times, frustrations, happiness, tiresome days, gladness and surprises. I didn’t know how to put them all together in one.

I don’t know when I’m gonna write here again, a good one, but one thing I’m sure about, I will still write, research and technical writings though.

See you again WordPress!

 

 

8 Simple Things That Make Her Feel Special

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The small things you do for a woman are the ones that mean the most. Why? Because those are the things that show her you’re willing to put effort in for her, just because. No holiday or special occasion needed.

A good boyfriend or husband knows that any man who waits until Valentine’s day to romance the woman in his life is missing the point 364 days out of the year. He also understands that while grand romantic gestures are great, the thought put into everyday activities is even better.

Here are eight small things that actually have a big impact.

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1. Make her feel beautiful, every day.

This one seems obvious. Internet Romeos everywhere are reading this going “Hey man, I call girls beautiful every day!” I don’t mean just telling a woman she’s beautiful – any guy can do that. I mean make her deeply feel, in her heart, that you think…

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Ang Huling Liham Na Isusulat Ko Para Sa’Yo

[Kung may “Ang huling tulang isusulat ko para sa’yo” si Juan Miguel Severo, narito naman ang aking huling liham para sa kung kanino man ang liham na ito]  Ito ang #hugotletter para sa lahat ng nafriend zone at natutong magmove on.

Para sa kung kanino man ang huling liham na ito,

Sa totoo lamang hindi ko alam kung paano ko sisimulan at tatapusin ang liham na ito. Hindi ko alam kung saan ito patutungo, sa iyong puso ba na tila sarado o sa utak mong hangad ko’y  kahit paano ay naroon ako. Marami akong nais sambitin pero hindi ko magawa. Marami akong nais itanong pero hindi ko magawa. Marami akong nais na marinig na kasagutan sa lahat ng katanungang bumubulong sa aking isipan, ngunit hindi ko magawa. Nalilito ako na para bagang hindi ko alam kung tama ba ang lahat ng ito- ang sabihin ang mga katagang “salamat at paalam”.  Nalilito ako dahil maaring sa pagkakataong ito ay hindi mo pa rin alam, hindi mo pa rin ramdam. Nalilito ako dahil hindi ko man lamang alam kung lahat ng ito ay may saysay. 

Nalilito ako kung anong akda ba ang nararapat para sabihin ang lahat ng salitang tila may gamit na miktinig dahil sa lakas ng tunog ng mga ito na halos aking ikabingi. Tama ba na liham, o dapat bang isang saknong, parirala kaya o isang taludtod o dapat din bang isang tula na lamang? Subalit sa dami ng sa akin ay gumugulo, aking napagtanto na akma ang isang liham na tulad nito. Noong una ako ay nag-aalinlangan subalit tila ba may isang balani na humihimok sa akin para likhain ang liham na ito. 

Sisimulan ko ang lahat sa  pasasalamat. Salamat sa iyo. Hindi ko na alam kung makailang beses ko na itong nawika pero uulit ulitin ko dahil sa napakaraming bagay na sobrang ipinagpapasalamat ko dahil sa tulad mo. Salamat sa mga panahong ikaw ay nagsilbing araw sa buhay kong tila wala ng bagong umaga. Lahat ng iyong nagawa para sa akin ay mahirap ilagay sa isang banghay o di kaya naman ay gamitan ng batayang panukat. Dahil sa totoo lamang, walang katumbas ang lahat ng iyon. Salamat sa lahat ng iyong kuwento, ngiti at suporta. Salamat sa pagiging tunay na karamay. 

Ngayon ay akin itong tatapusin sa isang paalam. Paalam sapagkat sa lahat ng nangyari sa nakaraan ito na lang ang alam kong maaari ko pang sabihin. Paalam sapagkat ito na lamang ang salitang sa akin ay natitira. Paalam sa sakit na maaaring hindi mo naramdaman, sa sugat na aking dinala at sa luhang hindi mo nakita. Paalam sapagkat ito ang salitang akma na manggaling sa tulad kong nakaramdam ng higit pa sa tulad mong ang tingin ay kaibigan lang pala. Paalam dahil matapos akong magbulay-bulay, aking napaglinaw sa sarili na kaya ko, kaya ko kung hanggang doon lamang talaga ang meron sa atin. Paalam sapagkat tulad ng isang ibong nasugatan ang bagwis at ngayon ay patuloy na naghihilom, matapos ng lahat ng ito, muli akong makalilipad sa isang bagong bughaw ng himpapawid kahit na wala ka. Paalam na tulad ng bukas na hindi na magiging bukas o ng ngayong hindi naging ngayon. Paalam tulad ng isang bahaghari, unti unting naglalaho subalit sa iyong pagsilay ay nag-iwan ng makulay na alaala.

Heto na ang lahat ng aking nais sabihin subalit hindi ko na nagawa at hindi ko na gagawin, hindi ko na sasabihin ng harapan at idadaan ko na lang sa liham. Huwag kang mag-alala, ako’y walang poot, ni konting himutok sa iyo aking giliw. Dahil ang hinagpis na ito ay batid kong kasalanan ko, kasalanan ko na mabuhay sa panaginip na alam kong kailanma’y hindi magiging totoo. Panalagin ko na kahit paano ay hindi mo malimutan ang makailang beses na naroon ako sa mga panahong kailangan mo rin ng kaibigan, karamay, hingahan, at kasama sa kung saan man. Naroon ako kahit na ang katawan ko na ang nagsasabi na hindi ko na kaya pa ang magbigay ng lakas at panahon. Naroon ako kapag kailangan mo ng suporta sabihin mo lamang kung saan at kailan. Batid ko din na mayroon ng iba, kaya mas pinili ko na ibahin ang daang aking tatahakin. Magpakalayu-layo hanggang sa ang laman ng puso ay maglaho. Martir man kung tawagin subalit datapwat ito ang alam kong tamang gawin. Tanging hiling ko lamang sa iyo ay nawa’y iyo paring isaklit lahat ng ating alaala para sa kung himalang ang mundo natin ay magkabaliktad, dala mo ito upang sa akin ay ipaalala. 

Sa ngayon, hindi na ako aasa na may lugar sa ating dalawa. Tinanggap ko na at handa na akong suungin ang bagong buhay. Ika nga ng isang awitin, “Tuloy pa din ang awit buhay ko, magbago man ang hugis ng puso mo”. Magsusulat ako ng bagong kabanata na kung saan ay hindi ka na karakter sa lahat ng pahina nito. Tulad ng isang talata na tinapos ng tuldok, ito  na  maaari ang huling liham na isusulat ko para sa’yo. Hindi. Ito na ang huling liham na isusulat ko para sa’yo.

Paalam,

Oriang

#MARYJANE

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#Sketching #MARYJANELIVES

My heart bleeds for the life of Mary Jane and other victims of human trafficking, greed for money and the likes. I remember when I went back home just recently, I met a Filipina maid in the airport who fortunately had the chance to escape from her abusive employer. She reported it to her agency but, unfortunately, the agency just kept her in their office, told her not to tell the story to anyone. She was not allowed to give calls or go out of the office. She was still in fear the day I met her. So where was the PH government in this situation? Trust issues? Ignorance of the law? That I don’t know. She needed encouragements that time more than the questions. Undoubtedly, the PH embassy wasn’t informed. No one was there to assist her. She was given a flight ticket back to PH with only 50 pesos in her pocket. None of her relatives were there when she arrived. It was really heartbreaking. 

To the Indonesian government: The Filipino people are not requesting for pardon, we just want a just and fair investigation. We respect your law, that’s why appeals were submitted. The law was created to protect the innocent and to punish the guilty. What if she is really innocent? What’s the point of your law? All we want is respect for truth; we are just fighting for a life that is worth saving for. Killing MJ does not mean victory over drug syndicates. It is actually giving them more opportunities and new strategies to use innocent people to do their thing.

To PH Government: #%$!!!!!!@@@@!!***%%%%%!!!!! T T

To everyone: If we want a positive change, we should start the change that we want NOW. We all argue whether to push death penalty or not. We all argue what punishment should be given to all those who did crimes and the likes. We all argue whether people can change for the better. We all argue in everything that we don’t understand and even to those we understand. But the thing is, before we argue with these things, let us have a moment with ourselves. What are you doing to change the world? Is it for the better? Is it for your own benefit? Is it for the sake of the future generations? How do you value life? How do you value others? Is it worth doing? Or is it worth living? TAKE ACTION!

-The End-

The Duo to Success: Passion and Motivation

Getting up for school has always been a challenge for most of us- from primary to secondary to undergraduate degree to post graduate thing. So, as for me, the day I finished my undergraduate studies, I never thought of taking a post graduate course. Until one day, I heard a nudge from my soul. It was a moment of realization and clarity. At last, I knew what I really wanted to do. After all those years, I finally discover the thing that I am passionate of. There, I decided to apply for a post graduate course outside the country.  It was a leap of faith and courage. I took the road less traveled.

The real thing has finally begun. I am doing my thesis’ data collection for more than a month now. And I still have almost 4 months to go. The truth is- it’s extremely exciting yet very exhausting.  I have to get up early in the morning almost every day. It’s like catching Mr. Sunrise before he finally becomes a skin-darkening star. Then, I travel like a backpacker for almost 2 hours using three different transports in a country that is miles away from my homeland. The moment I reach my research site, the serious thing is already in place. At the site, believe it or not, all I have to do is to observe the activities of the monkeys and their existing conflicts with humans. All day, I need to be prepared, shielded, on-the-go and be alert for all the grins and attacks. Sometimes, or most of the time, I have a stone and a long stick with me for self defense. I need to walk a number of times in an almost one kilometer trail back and forth. It is not just a simple trail though. It goes up and up and up until you feel the shaking of your legs and heartbeat. I try not to eat and convince my self not to, even if I’m starving whenever there are monkeys around. Oh, just so you know, they always want a share, or I must say, they want everything. All of these are what I needed to love for 10 hours- the longest 10 hours of my life.

However, when you love what you are doing and you are passionate with it, you will always find a way to be motivated.

Yes. It is exhausting.

Yes. It is dead tiring.

Yes. It is scary.

Yes. It is challenging.

Yet if it is your passion, it’s as if you are overdosed with energy drinks with an additional dose of motivation, excitement and happiness. There are times that you will be physically and emotionally challenged, but the moment you know what you really want to do, what you are made for, what you want to achieve and what your dreams are for, you will get up every friggin’ morning and you will finish your task with all your might even if it feels like it’s the longest and most backbreaking hour of your life.

“To succeed you have to believe in something with such a passion that it becomes a reality”- Anita Roddick

I still couldn’t see the finish line but I believe that there is something somewhere there. All I have to do is to believe and to continue the passion.

How about you? What are you passionate about in your life?

If it’s worth it, get it! Here’s a sticky note for you. When we talk of passion- “It’s not about where your starting point is, but your end goal and the journey that will get you there.” Unknown

Passion is the key to motivation, motivation includes passion, and success is the end product of passion and motivation.Passion deserves hard work and sacrifice. Make your passion be a motivation and make your motivation be your passion.

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May I introduce to you my friends to whom I offer my passion and motivation:

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44 na Tagaligtas- The Fallen Heroes

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Para sa pamilya, kaibigan at nagmamalasakit sa mga TAGAPAGLIGTAS,

Maaring marami sa atin ang hindi sila kilala o ngayon lamang nalaman ang patungkol sa Special Action Force ng PNP. Ang ilan ay nakakakilala ng lubos sa kanila tulad ng pamilya at kaibigan. Marahil marami sa atin ang nagtatanong kung ano ba ang totoong nangyari? Bakit humantong sa trahedya at pagbubuwis ng buhay ang enkwentro sa Mindanao? Ano ang tunay na nangyari sa 44 na SAF officers? Hanggang sa kasalukuyan maraming tanong pa ang gumugulo sa ating lahat. Nariyan ang mga pagdududa at hinanakit sa kasalukuyang pamahalaan. Ang totoo, hindi ko na din mawari kung ano na ba talaga ang ipinaglalaban ng mga terorista? Bakit kailangang pumatay at magdulot ng kaguluhan para sa pansariling layunin? Ano ba talaga ang magiging balik nito sa kanila? Magulo. Oo. Naguguluhan na ako. Magulo dahil buhay na ang kapalit ng lahat.

Gayunpaman, sa gitna ng pagdadalamhati ng bansa sa nangyaring ito, ito ang panahon na mas kinakailangan nating maging isa, maging matatag at matapang sa lahat ng pinagdadaan ng bawat isa sa atin. Sa ganitong paraan hindi masasayang ang dugo at buhay na ibinuwis ng 44 na tagapagligtas. Aaminin ko wala akong kilala sa kanila. Pero ramdam ko ang hapdi. Sa ngayon, ang panalangin ko ay hustisya sa 44 na SAF officers.

Noon, may narinig akong tanong na sobrang tumatak sa isip ko. Sa panahon ngayon, ano ang maaring maitatak o maiwan ng bagong henerasyon sa ating bayan? Ano ang pwedeng gawin ng henerasyong ito na maaring maisama sa kasaysayan ng bansa o maisulat man lamang sa mga pampaaralang aklat. Napaisip ako. Ano nga ba? Nawalan ako ng maisagot ngayong tayo ay kuntento na sa ibinibigay sa atin ng syensya. Hanggang sa dumating ang isa sa pinakamadilim na araw sa ating bansa, Araw na nasaksihan ng henerasyon ngayon. Nakakalungkot na malaman ng sa murang edad ng mga nasawi, maraming pangarap din ang nailibing. Malungkot. Masakit. Ngunit sa kabila nito, nawa’y di natin makalimutan ang nagawa nila para sa bansa. Bilang kasama sa henerasyong ito, ako ay saludo sa kanilang katapangan at paninindigan para sa tungkulin. Hiling ko sa aking mga kahenerasyon na kumilos para sa bayan kahit sa simpleng paraan. Tama na ang selfie, DOTA, COC at kung anun ano pa. Kailangan nating kumilos para sa pangmatagalang pagkakaunawaan ng ating bansa. Maging simula tayo ng pagbabago para sa katahimikan at kaligtasan. Hindi man natin lahat magawa ang nagawa ng SAF para sa bayan, tandaan sana natin na marami tayong pwedeng magawa- isa na ang simpleng pag-alala sa kanila.

Paalam mga Dakilang Bayani! Walang katapusang pasasalamat at pagsaludo!

Where Do Broken Hearts Go?

Where do broken hearts go?”– Isang tanong na sa totoo lang ay mahirap sagutin. Saan nga ba maaaring tumungo ang mga nabasag na puso? Saan nga ba? Meron bang lugar dito sa mundo na maaring magkanlong sa mga pusong bigo? Sa Baguio ba talaga? O sa Boracay? O sa Japan kaya?

Nasasaktan tayo sa napakaraming dahilan. Maaaring iniwan ka ng mahal mo, nag-away kayo ng bff o ng magulang mo, nawalan ka ng trabaho, o di kaya naman ay nawala na ng tuluyan ang tao o bagay na mahalaga sa iyo. Nasasaktan tayo dahil minsan pakiramdam natin ay wala na tayong kakampi sa buhay. Nasasaktan tayo dahil masakit talaga at wala ng ibang salita ang pwede pang magdescribe sa feeling na iyon. Nabasag ang puso dahil hindi nangyari ang inaasahan nating mangyari.

Mahirap masaktan. Mahirap magmove on. Mahirap magpatuloy lalo na kung ang puso ay sawi at tila ba wala ng maliwanag na bukas ang iyong tanging nakikita. Kaya naman sa gitna ng lahat ng pagkabigo, dadating ka talaga sa point ng buhay mo na gusto mo na lang takasan ang lahat. Tumakbo, lumipad at magpakalayo. Kung ako ang tatanungin ng “where do broken hearts go?”, isa lang ang isasagot ko, “saan ba sa tingin mo?”. Dahil ang totoo, wala namang ibang may alam kung saan ka dapat lumugar or magtungo kapag nasaktan ka, kundi ikaw lang. Ikaw lamang. Nasasaiyo naman ang desisyon kung saan mo gusto pumunta- sa lugar ng pagpapatawad, pagmomove on, paglimot, paghihinakit, o pagkamuhi. Hindi porket tinanong ka ng “where?” ay pupunta ka na sa lugar na ikaw lamang at kakalimutan ang lahat. Mahirap harapin ang mga bagay o taong nagdulot ng sakit at pighati. Subalit hindi ba dapat matuto tayo na harapin at solusyonan ang mga ito. Sabi nga ng iba, “it takes time”. Totoo naman. Proseso ang pagpapahilom sa isang pusong nasaktan. Pero hangga’t maari isipin mo na sa bawat sakit na nararamdaman mo, maaring hindi lang ikaw ang nasasaktan. Huwag mong hayaang ikaw ay maging epidemya. Harapin mo ng buong tapang ang sakit. Hindi sagot ang pagiging emo. Hindi pwedeng dahilan na nasaktan ka ng isang tao kaya hindi ka magpapatawad. Hindi pwedeng maging dahilan na naupos ka dahil sa isang pagkakamali para hindi magpatuloy ng buhay.

Kung lahat ay nakamove on na, sana ikaw din. So where do broken hearts go? Humarap ka sa salamin, ngayon na. Tingnan mo ang sarili mo, saan mo gustong dalahin ang buhay mo? Ano ang nakikita mo?

There is Something In You

I See Something by Dananjaya Hettiarachchi

“All of us has something special that makes us as beautiful. Do you know what makes you special? Now, the answer to that can be a little difficult to find because sometimes life has a cruel way. […] When you’re broken, it’s very difficult to feel special.”

When you’re lost and broken it’s difficult to feel special. But when you feel that you are loved and trusted by the people you value the most, those broken pieces in your heart can be fixed once again. Love heals, love completes, love sees, love fixes- Love Does. Never forget that you are special and unique in your own way. Believe that there is something in you- there is something in you that only you can discover. There is something in you that the world needs. Never give up when the world gives you challenges, they are your opportunities to discover the person that is within you. You have potentials waiting to be unleashed. There is something in you. Lastly, do not forget to see something beautiful and unique about the people around you. They are just there waiting- waiting for your love and affirmation. “There is something in you”- five words that can change lives. Do not hesitate to speak it out.

A Love Inside [A Note for Men and Women]

Did you ever experience to love someone? A love so deep, a love that satisfies, a love that gives a bliss and a love that your heart can’t contain. Did you ever love someone so righteous that you don’t want to make even a single mistake? Did you ever feel a love that will never last? Did you ever love someone even though it hurts- it hurts so much that you don’t want to fall in love again? Did you ever love someone from a distance? Did you ever love somebody you know will never love you back but still you choose to love? If you did, you know how that one love, that love inside of you changes everything.

As we walk through this life, we discover a million tiny or big things about love. Sometimes, we don’t even know it is love not until we realize that we just miss our chance. And that’s the time we feel that love’s a traitor. However, LOVE is and will never be a traitor. It is our options and decisions that disappoint us, teach us to hate people and force ourselves to become someone we are not made for. Love is and will always be beautiful, you just have to believe.

I remembered Ps. Carlo’s preaching the last time I attended the Destiny Manila’s Service. He said: Love is not who you can see yourself with but who you can see yourself without. I was pondering on this the whole day and I realized that when we badly want something, we try to do everything just to get it- sometimes because we need it or we just want to have it. But when we don’t want to lose something, we value and take care of it because we want to keep it much more than how much we need it. I hope you’re getting what I mean. I am still vividly thinking of how to expound it. If you think the same thing as mine and you have a clearer picture on how to explain it, please do share it with me.

After nth hours of thinking, I’ve also thought of sharing a short reminder for men and women out there. This is the love I have inside for every man and woman of this generation.

Dear Ms. Beautiful,

I pray that your heart is in a good condition while reading this. I would like to tell you that you are lovely; you are gorgeous; you are beautiful just the way you are because you are a Princess of the Most High. As the Princess of God, please don’t lower your standards just to be noticed by men. Your body is the temple of God. Think of how should a temple be taken care of. Yes. That’s it. It should be take care with love, elegance and purity. Just be yourself and don’t aim to be someone else. Use your beauty for Him and Him alone. You are worth fighting for. You are meant to be pursued. Prepare yourself as you wait for God’s perfect timing and plans. Choose for the man who loves the Lord first and as much as how he loves you. Choose for a man of vision, prayer and faithfulness. Choose for the man responsible and devoted to you and your family. Choose for a man with sensitive spirit and is faithful to whatever the Lord has given him. Don’t settle for anything less. Pray for your man. Be the woman of God and the woman with the same quality you are looking for in a man.

Dear Mr. Handsome,

You are the man of God. You are a great warrior and leader of God’s Kingdom. You are meant to protect the woman you love and not to take advantage of her. Use your strength and your wisdom in a way that will always honor a woman. Be a gentleman. Be willing to do things a woman would love to even if you don’t want it (for example: just by simply watching cheesy movies and other woman stuff). You are meant to lead your woman to God as well as your family. Pursue God. Do not be someone else just to impress girls. Be who you are but never forget to always choose to become a better person. A man who is always willing to learn and improve. Women are emotional whilst most of the men are secretive of their feelings. Herein, Be open to your woman. Don’t ever forget to communicate. Don’t just hide inside your cave until your fear subside. You might miss your best chance. Be courageous enough to face your fears and the consequences. Do not say faulty words to your woman. Be a man of encouragement instead of being burden. Be a man of motivation. 

All the best. May we all meet our Ms. and Mr. the one in His perfect time. Wait patiently. Remember: It is always who you are while waiting that matters most.